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If you're also on Tumblr you've seen me talk a lot about politics. I'll spare you the details. But I've also been feeling hope from some unlikely places. I've written to both my US Senators and state AG asking them to take a position on some issue, and got nice reflective responses. One of those senators is a Republican and has since publicly criticized the president for the J6 pardons. So even when I didn't agree with them on their positions, I at least feel like I've got people of substance who are representing me along with everyone else. Plus I've been volunteering with an immigrant aid group from before the election. The stories I hear would break your heart, but there's no shortage of small, practical things I can do to help, and it's nice to be connected with other volunteers. I wish I could be there with the Kid as she's going through all this, but it helps to think I'm helping others in a similar situation.

Other than that, I'm trying to find small good ways to be nice to myself. I bought a stuffed trilobite from a natural history museum's online shop. And I've been reading a little fanfic and playing with Bilbo more than normal. She's gotten very cuddly, even to a fault (if there is such a thing). My knee's more or less healed so I've been taking short walks around the apartment complex. And this isn't so much for fun, but I've been trying to read some American speeches and, like, historical political writings. So far I've done MLK's address at Spelman College and Frederick Douglass's "What is the Fourth of July to a Slave?" Historical prose is never easy to digest, but it reminds me why I like being American, which is helpful. Also I've been reading the text of Trump's executive orders. It helps to know exactly what he's saying and think it through, just in an I-am-a-philosopher-and-working-through-the-details-grounds-me kind of way. And because I'm a geek, I want to dig into the Federalist Papers one of these days.

Anywho. I really didn't come here to dump a ton of politics on me. I'm probably focused there, but it's not all doom and gloom. Here's hoping you're all finding your own bit of light these days, and if anyone would find it helpful to talk, I'm here.
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Helene has been rougher than I think any of us were expecting. Maybe I wasn't paying attention. But there are about 1.2mil people wihout power with my utility company alone, nearly 100,000 in my county.

COVID is also kicking my butt much more than I was prepared to admit, even to myself. Physically I think the first round back in 2021 was worse, but combined with the storm I just am not able to cope so well. Plus it's 2024, so now it feels like a personal ailing I caught it again. I know, that's not true, but in my head it is. Had my mini (ish) breakdown, cried more than the situation required, pet Bilbo, then moved out to my balcony where at least I could feel a bit less like the walls were caving in around me. So there's that. Not only are we still without power, we don't even have an estimate of when it will be fixed, and I think that lack of information more than anything else is a big part of what's so hard

I'll probably try to go find a Starbucks tomorrow and charge my devices. It will mean walking back up three flights out, plus spreading my germs around (which I really didn't want to do), but I think my need to get out for a bit trumps that. That is, if we don't have an estimate on when the power will be back. I need to be better at being a bit selfish, I think.

One cute story: I have a mini-lantern that you turn on by pulling the top and base apart and twisting a bit. I thought I was struggling with it. Turns out I was struggling with a jar of peanut butter. Twisted too hard, cracked the lid, and peanut butter went everywhere. Bilbo was very much in favor. I just had to lay back and laugh at it all.

PS- [personal profile] shirebound no I moved down to NC last October and am not in NY anymore. I thought I was a champion for braving the ice and snow, but summer storms down south really are something else!

PPS- one major bit of coping with such little internet, I'm starting to read the Unfinished Tales Celeborn & Galadriel section. I've no gotten far because of COVID headaches, but I'd forgotten there was a version where Celeborn was native to Lorien or at least met Galadriel there, rather than being a Sindarin elf out of Doriath. I think I've enjoyed so much of how that version of events sets up a nice confrontation between him and Celebrimbor, affects how he feels about Galadriel getting a Ring of Power, all that, I sort of blocked the more Silvan (??) version of his character out of my imagination. So it's an interesting thought to rediscover it a bit.
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The little man in my computer says we're going to have a proper Winds-day today.

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It's not actually raining yet, but there's already quite a lot of wind outside. Here's hoping the power lines hold up, and all of you stay safe.

I got some candy at the super market, similar to now & laters but with a stronger taste to them. Apparently they also have stronger smells because Bilbo is fascinated by the wrappers. Not only did she grab one out of my hand, it set her into full huntress mode. It's dinner and a show.

RL is keeping me more busy than I'd like, but with stuff I shouldn't be talking about online. That's why I'm around less. I hope you all are doing well, and happy Wednesday!
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I was getting dressed this morning, set down my socks on the bed while I put on my shirt, and a Certain Someone leaped up and ran off with one of them. Thief! Baggins! Socks in particular are a favorite prey of hers, and I"ve bought extra so I can let her have a few at a time. But in fairness I had cats growing up so I can't claim I didn't know what I was signing up for.

I've been reading the story of Aldarion and Erendis for the first time and basically liveblogging it over at Tumblr. I may collect up the links if anyone's interested. But the main thing (other than I've been letting my inner geek out to play and heartily enjoying it) is, Tolkien is playing with some rather racist and sexist ideas here in much more explicit terms than I think I've ever seen in his writings. The trick is it's story-internal racism and sexism, and it's clear the belief --if it's even genuinely held-- is being used to serve the story. Not something Tolkien necessarily believes or even is presenting as true for the story's world.

An example: Aldarion is a direct descendant of Elros, and Erendis, while she has the look of that line, it's said she isn't really and won't have the same longer lifespan. Aldarion is driven to go on long sea-voyages (he's away for years at a time even after they're married), and it's a main reason their marriage devolves into a technicality more than a true marriage. So Aldarion sets up a law where the king's heir can only marry someone of Elros's line. On the surface it feels very racist, even eugenics-y. The official justification given is because of the differing lifespans couples would be fundamentally mismatched. Which doesn't make much sense even on its own terms since there are lots of Elros-descended people not in line for the throne, so if this is really such an issue surely the law should apply to all of them?

The real reason is Aldarion's blaming the lifespan thing for the breakdown of his marriage, rather than accepting blame for essentially abandoning her, repeatedly!, so he could go off adventuring. It's a little more complicated than that (Aldarion's being driven by sea-longing, which Tolkien describes as an almost physical need to get back to the ocean), but certainly he's not treating Erendis well and because of his pride and just his basic character, he's not accepting that he needs to apologize and right the relationship. Much easier to blame her for being below him and them being fundamentally incompatible because of that, and thank goodness he has the wisdom to spare other people his heartache, etc.

It's a really fascinating look at racism as a crutch. And even the parts of all this I suspect Tolkien may have believed himself -- the idea of Numenoreans as the mannish messiahs of Middle-earth in the fight against Sauron does have imperialistic undertones, and I can see a conservative-leaning British man of his age having at least some sympathy for that view -- even there, Tolkien seems all too aware how this kind of mindset harms even the Numenoreans. It's fascinating, really, and quite fun to think through how we navigate hateful-in-RL things in the context of literature.

I've been thinking about that a bit because in other fandom news, Neil Gaiman was accused of sexual assault recently. What little I know seems more like a messy sex life to be sure but where I don't have enough facts to have an informed opinion on if it was truly assault vs. miscommunication, different perspectives, etc. So while he doesn't come out smelling like a bed of roses, I'm also not reaching for my pitchfork yet. But I'm also very aware that I like his writing, like the parts of him I've come to now through social media, and probably would approach these accusations differently if I wasn't so emotionally invested in him being a good guy. So the question of how we react to hateful things and even morally complicated situations in the abstract, versus when there's emotional entanglement (and yes, storytelling is similar!) is definitely on my mind. I don't have any hard answers. But I suspect I'll be thinking about it for a while to come.

Back to work, I suppose. Thanks for the space to play with my thinky-thoughts, and have a good day.
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I spent a lot of Friday getting various forms printed out, hunting through my folders for the documents I'll need, trying (unsuccessfully) to schedule an appointment with either the DMV or the passport office to accept my paperwork. I have a valid state-issued ID, but the state that issued it is NY and apparently that's not good enough to let me vote in NC. My passport would work, but it was lost in the move and expired anyway. I also can't move my voter registration online, which means I either need someone to sign saying I'm who I say I am, or go in person to do the form.

It's all doable, but won't be cheap and will involve taking off work. And it's also completely pointless. Another state already looked at my documents and said I was who I claimed. I've got to provide proof of residency to register anyway, and registering in one state automatically voids my registration in any other state. So requiring me to get a whole new ID is just making it unnecessarily more difficult.

That's what's so hard. Because I'll get through this, I can take time off and afford the costs. But I know each time you make something more difficult there are people who will just give up. And statistically, this really is more likely to impact people who rely on public transit or have other ID's like college ID's or benefit cards. The no out-of-state ID's thing seems targeted at college students in particular.

The fact that it's still this hard just feels unpatriotic, I guess. :-$
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I'm a bit shocked to hear Willie Mays died this week. Growing up my father was a sports writer (college not pro, but even still), and I spent more than a little time in locker rooms doing my homework while he worked. Pair that with the fact we had a minor league baseball team in town and we always had tickets. I never really followed sports as sports, but the culture of it, baseball especially and baseball of the generation or so before, has a special place in my heart.

Old people die, of course, and I didn't know him personally enough to have any sense of grief. But it still makes me feel a bit sad. Like a piece of a simpler world has slipped away, I guess.

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ETA: Unrelated, but I'm truly thankful to be down in the land of central air and not struggling through the heat dome with a fan and a bowl of melting ice. It sounds brutal. Stay cool if you can.
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Hobbit one-shot is posted.

SWG has a 70s challenge going on. MASH is so very, very '70s-typical, and I am once again having Thoughts. I mean, surely it can't hurt to reread the Numenor Unfinished Tales chapter, right?

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I mean...

The sword of time will pierce our skins
It doesn't hurt when it begins
But as it works its way on in
The pain grows stronger, watch it grin


I swear, I did not sign up for this nuzgul.

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