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Aug. 9th, 2023 07:46 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
marta_beeI finally have the chance to breathe a bit, so wanted to check in.. And Donutgirl said she dug out her El Jay password to read a recent post of mine, which made me realize how many people have migrated to Dreamwidth, so it seems the considerate thing to post here. Hopefully the crossposting doohickey will work; we'll see.
Work... is work, and more than that it continues to be A Lot. Lots of reasons for that I'm too zonked to go into at the moment. Probably most encouragingly, I've at least felt a bit of a sense of perspective about it all. Either that or a bit of nihilism. Probably a little of both. At the moment it's taking skills I don't really have and don't see myself ever being good at, but equally it's not the kind of work that was supposed to be my focus when I took the job. So it's exhausting and nerve-wracking but more and more it feels like the situation and not me (or at least not just me). Still exhausting. Hopefully it will sort out with time.
I've got a family member in the hospital. Some sort of a cardiac event, not a heart attack but on that spectrum. All indications are they caught it early enough to prevent major problems, he'll get a procedure tomorrow morning and probably come home same-day. It's making me feel all wonky about other people who died too soon mainly. "This is serious but fixable and things will probably be okay" does that to me. Not that I'd want other people to suffer, of course. Mainly, it also feels like A Lot.
The Great Relocating is still happening. I've signed a lease and am slowly but surely getting things packed up or thrown out. The main thing left to do is buy furniture and set up utilities. That is also still A Lot. I do seem to be doing quite a lot of big things all together, don’t I? No wonder my brain is soup.
Speaking of brain being soup, fandom-wise, I've sort of been riding the spoilers wave of the new Good Omens season. I've not actually seen the show. I'm not ready to; I was in the middle of reading the books and wanted to rewatch the first season first anyway, on top of which I don't have the time or emotional space for anything new. But I've not been, like, actively avoiding spoilers, so I've also been sort of absorbing it at a general level. I have a good idea of things that probably happened. I know at least parts of the ending. I've been seeing certain scenes and expressions pop up again and again. So it feels like I've kind of seen it? Or something. It's a fun experience to be sure.
That's all I've got it in me to write out just now. Hope you're all doing well.
Work... is work, and more than that it continues to be A Lot. Lots of reasons for that I'm too zonked to go into at the moment. Probably most encouragingly, I've at least felt a bit of a sense of perspective about it all. Either that or a bit of nihilism. Probably a little of both. At the moment it's taking skills I don't really have and don't see myself ever being good at, but equally it's not the kind of work that was supposed to be my focus when I took the job. So it's exhausting and nerve-wracking but more and more it feels like the situation and not me (or at least not just me). Still exhausting. Hopefully it will sort out with time.
I've got a family member in the hospital. Some sort of a cardiac event, not a heart attack but on that spectrum. All indications are they caught it early enough to prevent major problems, he'll get a procedure tomorrow morning and probably come home same-day. It's making me feel all wonky about other people who died too soon mainly. "This is serious but fixable and things will probably be okay" does that to me. Not that I'd want other people to suffer, of course. Mainly, it also feels like A Lot.
The Great Relocating is still happening. I've signed a lease and am slowly but surely getting things packed up or thrown out. The main thing left to do is buy furniture and set up utilities. That is also still A Lot. I do seem to be doing quite a lot of big things all together, don’t I? No wonder my brain is soup.
Speaking of brain being soup, fandom-wise, I've sort of been riding the spoilers wave of the new Good Omens season. I've not actually seen the show. I'm not ready to; I was in the middle of reading the books and wanted to rewatch the first season first anyway, on top of which I don't have the time or emotional space for anything new. But I've not been, like, actively avoiding spoilers, so I've also been sort of absorbing it at a general level. I have a good idea of things that probably happened. I know at least parts of the ending. I've been seeing certain scenes and expressions pop up again and again. So it feels like I've kind of seen it? Or something. It's a fun experience to be sure.
That's all I've got it in me to write out just now. Hope you're all doing well.
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Date: 2023-08-10 07:27 am (UTC)Good luck with the move and everything and I hope Life becomes less of A Lot for you.
I'm afraid the automatic cross-posting to LJ (if that was what you tried) broke quite a while ago and attempts to fix it failed.
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Date: 2023-08-10 10:32 am (UTC)I'm in the same situation, my friend, and it really is exhausting and nerve-wracking. *tight hugs*
Sadly, the DW crossposting doohickey hasn't been working for a long time.
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Date: 2023-08-10 12:30 pm (UTC)I hope that A Lot becomes Manageable soon, though it sounds like you've got some time ahead of you still before then. *more hugs*
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Date: 2023-08-11 01:06 am (UTC)Sounds like you're dealing with a lot!
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Date: 2023-08-11 05:31 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-08-12 11:30 am (UTC)- Erulisse (one L)